Speechless

20 dec. 2025

I have written a journal entry at the end of each of Fitz’s trilogy but for this last one, I don’t know that I can. What is there to say? Those books where a life changing experience. I will love and miss Fitz, Beloved and Nighteyes for the rest of my life, and I will long for their fate, as heartbreaking as it was. I am so thankful for Robin Hobb, for how beautiful her words were, for making me feel this way, for the joy and the pain, for all those things I didn’t know I needed to hear. It’s not often you feel a book was written for you, let alone sixteen of them.

I am so thankful, and in awe, and finally a little bit more whole.

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Now Some spoilers

I'm not sure why yet but it broke my heart that Bee could not love the Fool. She actually annoyed me in Assassin's Fate, even though I felt like I understood her (maybe because I understood her too well). It also broke my heart when we realise that all those books were Fitz telling his daughter the story of his life. That first scene from Assassin's Apprentice? From that point on I could not stop crying. It was so beautiful. It fixed something in me. I was so afraid the Fool would not join Fitz in the wolf. So, so afraid. I had to pause and yell at them like it would change anything. Fuck this was so good...

Also Brashen, I was being dazzled by Fitz but I see you, I see you.

Now how can I turn myself into a stone wolf so I can be one with my dog again? I miss you Pépin, every second of everyday since I last saw you. You deserved so much more that I could give you.

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art by Amelia Rose and Hannah Elatham