What is this? So, if I'm not mistaken (please tell me if I am) this will be visible only to people who follow me on neocities (when I update it) but since I'm not linking it anywhere, virtually invisible to other people. Most people I know from real life do not know I have a website, but just in case I feel like some thoughts should be a bit hidden. You will notice it's mainly stuff about my boyfriend right now. He's nice. I'm just very easily bored.
8 oct. 2026 - 14:36 Day two of being in a state of generalised panic. When I said I was not equiped to deal with anything I was not kidding!
7 oct. 2026 - 23:33 My god, why is the intrusive daydreaming about introducing my grandparents??? I dont know if I should laugh or cry !
7 oct. 2026 - 17:50 Boyfriend is being so lovely
7 oct. 2026 - 17:45 The plot today was a panic attack, because like, what am I even doing? I'll find a way to stop it!
6 oct. 2026 - 18:45 Very french of me to spot a crush at a protest
6 oct. 2026 - 00:30 I usually delete my gay panics but let's keep this one in. See where the plot takes us.
5 oct. 2026 - 23:19 If any of them ever suspects anything, let me die, I'm not kidding.
5 oct. 2026 - 22:43 "Last year? Oh yeah I did think she was very hot. Did I mention it to anyone? God no. But it did freak me out enough that it was one of the reasons I stopped going. Thank god it was so hard to get there, haha, perfect excuse, wasn't it?"
5 oct. 2026 - 22:42 "Yes, so I started roller derby like you suggested, and since I thought it was cool last year. Yes, it is still very cool. Loving the people, the vibe. Tiring but really fun. The only thing is, I started daydreaming about one of them. Nothing crazy, just very very gay stuff. But I guess let's start to worry about it when it becomes night dreaming, ok?"
5 oct. 2026 - 22:41 The question is, is writing all this down helping or making it worse? God... I'll have to talk about it with my therapist. Fuck it's gonna be so awkward.....
5 oct. 2026 - 22:35 The annoying thing is that, I feel like I'm pretty friendly overall, to everyone, but I'm so impressed by her that I can't really be doing words when she's around
5 oct. 2026 - 22:35 Obviously I'm not going to do anything. I'm a mess, not a bitch
5 oct. 2026 - 22:29 BUT, and not to be the one who blames it all on ADHD, I do really feel like it's the new forbidden shiny thing, like when you're getting into a new hobby and wanting to buy everything you need.
5 oct. 2026 - 21:51 Now that it's just us, I will say, the idea of just touching her arm feels more exciting to me than kissing my boyfriend right now
5 oct. 2026 - 21:51 Which, you could argue is also cringe
5 oct. 2026 - 21:48 I do love my boyfriend obviously, it's just a silly little crush that will pass, I'm just gonna be cringe for a little while before going back to normal
5 oct. 2026 - 21:44 God this is embarrassing...
5 oct. 2026 - 21:43 Cute is not the word though. Hot morelikemaybeprobablywhoknows.
5 oct. 2026 - 21:42 That's ok she did say my name
5 oct. 2026 - 21:42 No compliment from the cute one today but compliments on my butterfly cardigan nonetheless
2 oct. 2026 - 11:09 Apparently I'm right on the generational line, so guess it make sense..
2 oct. 2026 - 11:06 I think technically I'm a millenial too but the cultural divide seems so big (and getting bigger) between me and my sister (and other people her age) that I have a hard time relating to millenials. Like at all!
2 oct. 2026 - 11:04 Seeing your educated millenial sister start reposting basically AI slop is very tragic.
1st oct. 2026 - 20:51 She's normal nice, I'm just... yeah
1st oct. 2026 - 20:50 Noooo the derby girl is too nice to me... I don't have the emotional maturity please be mean
29 sep. 2026 - 21:09 It is, I'm afraid, very related.
29 sep. 2026 - 21:04 Sorry about that, I'm very unequipped to deal with anything
29 sep. 2026 - 21:01 ...
29 sep. 2026 - 21:00 God... You guys are so childish
29 sep. 2026 - 21:00 BUT IT'S UNRELATED TO THE THINGS I SAID BEFORE
29 sep. 2026 - 21:00 And start writing my girlfriends shrine.....
29 sep. 2026 - 21:00 Probably gonna start watching House of the Dragon tonight...
28 sep. 2026 - 22:57 Twice, actually, but who's counting ?
28 sep. 2026 - 22:56 What's cool is that I'm not going to think about how she complimented me for a whole week
28 sep. 2026 - 21:01 No, dude no, don't have a crush on one of the derby girls 
17 aug. 2026 - 23:31 I wish I had friends to tell me what to do because I'm not in a bad situation, it's just very meh..
17 aug. 2026 - 23:27 If writing fanfiction is fun, why does my boyfriend feel like a wet sock every time I do it?